Would like to rise above this difficult situation?

I am a 25-yr-old female and I have lived in NYC for the past eight years. I went to college and graduated two years ago, and had jobs through college and in the summers. However the past year and a half has been extremely hard on me and I am unemployed. I have searched high and low for a job over and over again to the point of exhaustion and depression and by the end of this spring I had to decide to rent my apartment out over the summer to another person (I can return on Sept. 1st). I feel so powerless, trapped and ashamed as I have absolutely zero dollars in my name and am stuck having to come home to my very small town to stay with my parents all summer. I desparately needed a break, a real break from the stress, like a trip somewhere, but I have no money. My parents are for the most part good people but my dad has an anger problem and a terrible temper and some times has these outbreaks where he turns into a monster and becomes verbally abusive. I don't think it's good for me to be in this atmosphere, and when I was growing up I told myself I would never stay in this atmosphere more than a week. Like I said, most of the time is fine, but once in a while there are these episodes and I have always tried and told myself I would protect myself from it. I am counting down the hours until Sept. 1st when I can go back to my life and home in NYC and try to make a go of it again. I do believe I will find a job. My family said they would give me some money to go back there in the first month for which I am appreciative. But right now I feel really trapped. I'm not used to feeling this powerless and I feel very ashamed of myself. I don't want to go back to NYC with no money of my own but this is an extremely small place and I don't think I can find anything here I have already looked. I don't want to wish this time away. I don't want to wish my life away until Sept. 1st. I still want to make something good of this summer. However I am appalled that I have not been able to protect myself from this situation (I swore to myself I would not come back here for more than a week). I am really realizing that without money, one has no personal freedom or power. What can I possibly do about this summer?